School-how to cope with

Being a sophomore in high school means, basically, loosing sleep over homework, teen drama, assignments and crazy, scary paper tests that seem to appear after every corner. In Romania, school started about three weeks ago, and ever since then I've been enrolled in a fast and too many times furious roller coaster, I've been up and down papers and projects and fights over unimportant matters, I've been high, really high, but I've also hit the bottom. I find that many students nowadays are not coping too well with the stress an average high school day can bring-and, even though I'm no psychologist, I've come up with a few ways they could improve their school life and hopefully turn it into something fun and useful.
Now, I get that too many stressful events can easily lead to anxiety and even further into depression, but if there is one thing that I've learned in this ten amazing and also terrifying years I've spent in school, is that, apart from death and...well, death, everything works out. And I know it's hard to believe and I know that some of you may roll your eyes at me, but think about it: Will it matter in one year? Because let me tell you something, it won't.
Yes, you've heard me, or better yet you've red me. Everything works out, and there is absolutely no reason for you to think otherwise. Start telling yourself this and you'll come to actually believe it. And seriously now, will it matter in one year that you've had a fight with your boyfriend/girlfriend , that you failed a test or that your mom grounded you and now you can't go to that amazing party ? No. So why loose sleep over it? Why charge yourself with all this crazy, dark, negative energy that would eventually consume you? Trust me. I've been there, and I've cried over boys whose names I can't remember right now, and I've fought with my parents over and over and over again because of some bad grades that don't matter anymore, and I've missed parties and I've never been too popular, but who the f cares?
No one. Because none of this things matter. You need to take a deep breath and start telling yourself that you can make it. There is something inside you greater than every obstacle. Please remember this next time you feel down.
Start focusing on stuff that matters and stop worrying about minor things. Think about college. Make a plan. Wake up, go to school and smile to everyone. Do your assignments when you have a little bit of extra time so you won't have to stay up late...again. Get involved into things that you like, join clubs and go trips. Stop depending on others. Find yourself. Meet new people. Laugh as much as you can. Fail sometimes, this is the only way you'll gain experience. Be positive, Help others. Breath every once in a while. Dump that asshole, you can do better. Read, read more, read as much as you can. Stay informed-you need to know about what's going on around you!
Try new things. Cry sometimes. Do extra assignments so that you save your average. Experience. Be honest, but never rude. Remember all this things next time you go to school. See, you are stuck here and there is really no way you can avoid it. ( btw, you shouldn't. Knowledge means power) SO you should start focusing of making the best of it, best of anything really.
Because no matter how hard it seems now, you'll never be this young again. And you'll miss it.
I'll miss it...

Hello again

It's been a while since I've last written anything here...( ok , lame try of being dramatic and cool-it's actually been like 42 hours and 34 minutes-but who counts) , but I just got inspired and felt the need to express myself - maybe it's the heat , maybe it's the summer running away from us , slipping through our fingers just like the sand used to last time we went to the beach. Anyways , I figured that my first post let out very little information about me. So , this one has the job to fill those holes .( just like my blog would be a huge , artistic vagina - oops , that was highly inappropriate- sorry not sorry)
Now , I don't know why any of you should be interested in knowing me ( that's because you aren't-I know , I know , stop rolling your eyes) but this is the only way I can think about in starting an online diary/blog/whatever , so yeah , I will go with it. Yay ! ( *praying* "please don't log out please don't log out please don't log out)
To be honest , I don't even know why I've started this blog anyway. It's not like I have something particularly interesting or amusing to share- But I guess I'm just trying to practice my English skills ( don't be fooled - every word that is written correctly is due to the "Cambridge advanced learner's dictionary- just saying , you know how annoying it is to have to use that? Is huge , heavy , and sometimes confusing ) and my writing skills and probably kill some time since I have plenty.And also , it makes me feel kinda important and profesional , like writing for a magazine or something -fun fact about me , I've always dreamed of being a novel writer -see , we already know each other better . 
So , my name is Alexandra and that's all you get to know because my last name would probably scare you off ( romanian , long , again , confusing) I'm sixteen and , unfortunately , I'm not living in the middle of Miami ( for all the Iggy Azaela fans out there this reference probably actually made sense) My birthday was one week ago , an the best time of my life was maybe like three weeks ago when I was in summer camp. When I can't breathe , I write. Breathing is actually very important to me , in the future you'll get to know why I'm saying-well , more like writing- that. I hate insects and I love pink , sunsets , books and tv shows. Harry Potter is my world. The film "About time" changed my life. I want to start a YouTube channel. I'm not a crier. I live in a small town , but extremely beautiful. I want to go back to London , this time for good. I write more often than I blink. I want to be Audrey Hepburn or Blair Waldorf. I'm strangely optimistic for someone with no social life. I'm  huge bookworm ( you've probably anticipated that from the numerous writing mentions- reading and writing are totally linked , they can't be without one another ) I've seen Mean Girls for , like , 15 times , and I could watch it again and again , I know all the words but that doesn't change anything. I can't swim and I hate that. I hate all the Romanian dishes - too healthy for me. Alex Turner is my husband , but he doesn't know that yet , and Arctic Monkeys is seriously the best thing that happened to the music industry since Beatles. Coffee never waked me up , but I'm still gonna drink it every single morning. I have my own concept about how I should live , like my own mantra or something - maybe somewhere in the future I'm gonna share it on my blog .I love everything beauty and fashion related , and I love recreating make up looks and outfits. I'm actually a pretty good liar. I love rain , all kinds of rain , including thunderstorms. I love classic things , from music to films . Disney is proof humans can do magic. I love going to the opera or ballet or theatre , rather than going anywhere else ( too bad none of my friends feel the same way so I end up going less often that I want to ) . I'm really interested in politics , I used to debate at a city debating club and I absolutely loved it - some people tell me I am leader cut , it might be true because I'm generally organised and a little bossy. I would love if I could candidate for school president next year but I'm afraid I won't have enough time. I make lists for everything , even when I get ready I list the things I'm supposed to put on my face , on paper. Lana Del Rey is my queen . 
Woah , too much information already? Well , if you kept on reading till here , hello again. Enchanted. 
Hello.


P.S. Here is more of my face :

My first time

So , believe it or not , this post is not going to be about that first time. That's right ladies and gentlemen , you aren't in for a new and updated 50 shades of Grey version ( although that would be really cool) You are going to experience five to ten minutes (  depending on how much of a fast reader you are) of my thrilling , surprising , exciting and totally boring life . Hope you enjoy !
I created this blog about three minutes ago , and ever since I've been debating with my inner voice on what should be the subject of my very first blog post. Should it be funny? Should it be a ranting about some of my favorite products? Should it be about my inability of expressing myself in English properly? ( I'm Romanian-Yes , it is an actual country. Yes , we do have internet connection )Well , it is your lucky day ! Because I've gone for the last one (*slow clap*)
For those of you who have been around this site for longer , you probably remember your very first blog post-the excitement , the thrilling emotion of starting something new , of going beyond your boundaries and limits and explore a new and artistic side of yourself bla bla bla. That side probably turned out to be a dark one when you realized you have no readers ( and , let's be honest - it happens to 99 percent of us. It's fine , it's probably going to happen to me too ) But , no matter how long has your writing career survived , you will always remember that first time. And I think that's one of the most valuable firsts in our life.
Sure , it's not like a first baby , or a first car , or the first "I love you" , but for an average sixteen-years old girl with no boyfriend that's the best it could get. So yay outcasts!
But , no matter what kind , I think firsts are important. And I seriously want to experience as many as I can up until the day I die. A great character from a great film once said "I love first times. I want my entire life to be composed by them. Life is only interesting if life is wide" ( and yes I totally memorized that. I thought you knew by now that I'm a no lifer)
So , If there are any of you actually reading this , share your firsts that you've experienced so far this year. I would love to hear about them all. And never , ever be afraid of making some more. Widen your horizons. Widen your life.
The only firsts from 2014 that I could think for right now are : my first boyfriend ( or , better yet , my first real as in more than three weeks boyfriend) my first summer camp , my first hangover , my first clubbing experience , my first trip to Greece , my first year in High School , my first sleepover ,my first time going to the beach with my bff's , my first laptop , my first tumblr post ( a litte bit of shameless self promotion-http://alexandravsl.tumblr.com/ this is my tumblr if you want to stop by and say hi ) my first really really really bad grade , my first love ( YouTube , that is ) my first cigar ( nothing to brag about since I kinda sorta maybe definitely regret it ) and , of course , my first blog post. So , up until the end of the year , I hope I will experience just as many firsts. And I hope that you will do the same